So since it's been a long time since I've updated and I don't feel like sleeping and the rest of my apartment is, I thought I'd finally update. Plus, it'll kill time before I actually get sleepy. Where do I start? Well, Football season is over finally, which I can't believe because it seems like it went by so fast. Big Game Week was amazing. I had so much fun that week and I actually got barely any sleep. I think it was due to the fact that I actually went to class along with going to all those performances. One of the best SHBs that I went to was Big Sail, which we played at a Battle of the Bands with Stanfurd and we got some really awesome food. It was like VIP food. Couple slabs of steak, halibut, mashed potatoes, and some good cheesecake to top it off. Mmmm. Hung out a lot with Stephanie and David since all of us went to pretty much all that we could. Also, Friday night before the game, I went on Night City bus and it was crazy. A group of us went to go play inside Royal Exchange and we pretty much got shitfaced. All these alumns kept buying us booze the whole night. I gotta say, Jaegermeister is some good shit. Inside, David and I got caught up along the side of the bar while the rest of the group was in the front and this couple, or so we think they were, and a guy kept buying us shots of Jaeger and Vodka/Redbulls. That night was so much fun, I think it was the best SHB I've been on. So then the game went and it was a good victory. We killed them 27-3 even though the first half was just 6-3. 2nd half was so much more exciting. Blah blah blah. I'm just rambling on.
It's been a good season I must say. I've gotten closer to my friends this year and it sucks that most of them are leaving to go do better shit or just graduating for that matter. It's hard to imagine how school and band is gonna be like when most of the 4th years are gone. I mean I've pretty much grown as a person with most of them these past 4 years in college. Now, when next year comes along, it's not gonna be the same. I'm not going to see the familiar faces that I've seen. Yeah, there will be the underclassmen but these guys are probably the closest friends that I have right now, along with my roommates. And in a year from now, I won't see 90% of them. It's gonna be weird and I dont' know how weird it's gonna be.
I bring this up because this past weekend I went home for Thanksgiving and I did absolutely nothing. Drove down with David for about 8 hours since there was some horrific traffic getting out of the bay area and then it only took about 6 1/2 to get back. Had some good times in the car just talking about guy shit... you know... bitches and hoes. hahaha. It was a good trip. Anywho, I didn't talk or see any of my high school friends. I don't know what it is. I've just drifted from all of them and now I don't keep any contact with them. I did see a couple of old friends from middle school/high school and hung out with them one night, which was really cool. I pretty much just stayed home, watched TV and movies the whole time. Yeah it's kinda sad but I don't feel sorry for myself. I just go down to LA for my family. There's really no other point to go down there. Most of my friends and most of my life is now up in Berkeley. My high school friends.... I have no fucking idea what they're up to. Is it my fault? I don't think so. I'm the one that usually calls them but now I'm at the point where I'm probably more of an inconvenience. If they don't to call, that just means they dont' care. The past couple holidays or vacations, I'm the one that calls them to see if they want to hang out. Plus, I think that I've changed from high school and so have they, but we changed in different directions. I've become more liberal and they've become more conservative. I know this is all on assumptions but oh well. I mean, seriously, I think I'm the only one that drinks or smokes out of our group. Who knows? I might be wrong. But of course I don't know. When I went home, I totally wanted to go out to the bars to go drinking and hang out but I can't call them. They'll just look at me weird or tell me that they dont' drink. I know I sound pissed but I'm really not. I just think that my life in LA is pretty much done with or just my high school roots are all gone. I only have family down in LA that I love and I know coming back home makes my parents happy, and that's the least I could do for them since I'm in school up here for most of the year. I just think it kinda sucks. That's all.
So since I've had so much time down in LA of doing nothing but sitting on my ass and watching movies, TV, and Scrubs on DVD, I had some time to think about the most random shit. The big thing is the whole controversy about euthanasia. I dont' know if I spelled that correctly and I don't know what to think of it. For me, it hits closer to home since it deals with my sister. I've thought about the whole living will thing that the news tries to tell everyone to do now ever since the whole controversy with Terry Schavio. Honestly, I have no fucking clue what I would want to do with myself, my parents, my wife (if I ever find one) and kids (of course I'd need a wife first). It's such a scary topic for me. I think everyone would say that if someone is in such a critical condition, why wouldn't they want to just be put off of life support? But I dont' think it's that simple. For me, even though Noo-Na (my sister) has been in a coma for about 4 years now, people would probably suggest to take her off life support because I dont' think she's had any signs of improvement in the past years. It's crossed my mind too, but I can't do that. I dont' think mom and dad could do that either. The big factor that sort of pushes me away from letting go is hope. Hope that a miracle might happen. I've heard of those stories where a person has been in a coma for 10-15 years and suddenly they wake up. How do you account for that? So if someone is in a coma or in a critical state, how do you not know that something miraculous might happen? Or if you dont' like 'miracles' then how about luck? I just can't comprehend how people can say that they can speak for someone that is in a comatose state and say that this person would rather be dead than in the state they're in. How do they know? And the whole writing a living will? How do you know what you want in a situation if you're not even in that situation? If you were a parent and your kid was in that state, would you want to take your child off of life support? Would you want to take your spouse off of life support? It's some crazy shit and I don't know what to think.
This has been one crazy update. Maybe if I updated in increments, it wouldn't be this long and random. Also, I probably would've remembered details of each week, like when I went to Oregon and just relaxed with people and bonded with them instead of getting crazy drunk and whatnot. Also, going into a pr0n store with a group of 10. Also, how I'm failing a class probably or how I'm worried about whether or not I'll graduate from college when the thought came up. Anywho, this shit is for me so if you've read this, hopefully it has entertained some of you.
Oh and by the way, I think we're going to Vegas Bowl! holla!!
Go Bears!
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